Intro...

Hello! My name is Tamie. I'm 27. My birthday is March 17 (so there's plenty of time to get me something =D jk.) I am new too this whole blogging bit so please bare with me. I have a husband who is a recovering addict. Times haven't been easy but we are making it through. We are blessed with three little trouble making boys. The drama in the family is like a soap Oprah. And I am the overweight mule who keeps pulling the oversized cart through the mud. I don't know what this blog will hold. I do know I want to be motivated to lose this fat suite. Even if I may have been big bones. ..or lets say thick. I was notFAT ...my own mother put weight issues in my head. ..I had a woman's body wishing for a child's body...because all my sisters were stick thin. That is till they hit puberty. Thanks ma for putting that in my head. So I got pregnant at 19. 6 months pregnant I only gains 16 lbs and the doctors told me that was too much. That did a number to me ... and and the last 4 months I gains 50lbs....that's my if only I could go back and change things moment. I haven't lost the weight since. In fact after having 2 more kids...I can't blame the weight weight gain on I hit a few months of depression putting me at my highest in 2008 of 253 lbs....in 2009 I was down 50lb and kept it off till 2011... where all the drama starts and I bounced up to a new high. 257lbs. I can't even begin to tell you how ashamed I am. And ever since I have struggled. I am at 243 now... but getting motivated is hard when all I want to do is fill the empty space. Something's got to give.