Me vs Half a mile

Well new goal new reward. I want to get as close to 215 as possible ...do you know how crazy that will be? That will leave me at about 10 lbs away from 50lbs lost. Really! 50....
:-/ why do I have to get so technical ... I'm off track ... I wanted to be under 200 when I saw my inlaws again...the first week in june.... I don't know maybe I can do it.... or atleast get close. I haven't been that weight since like the beginning of 2010 ... so maybe they will notice?  And it will be close to Christmas that we see them again maybe then they can meet the better me.  And no I'm no losing weight to impress them.... this is not who I was....this is what I became 3 kids in 4 years and major depression can take its toll on a body. It just would be nice to feel confident again. People. look differently at a fat person over a thin person.  Fat people carry themself different. And I just want to get out of that class.  I want to quit hiding behind the camera and take our first family picture in 5 yes FIVE years. I cant even find any before pictures to compare to ... because I DELETE them when no one is looking. The last 8 years of my life is almost completely missing....how messed up is THAT!?!?
Now before that rent I was wanting to be in the 150s by my high school reunion in August ... when I started that gave me 12 months to lose 100lbs...not unreasonable considering people do that in 10 months....hell biggest loser contestants do it in 3 or less.... well I had a few hiccups along the way and I will be lucky to reach 70lb ....but who knows...

And then the next thing I worry about.....gaining it back. But....I will go on that rant later.
On a positive note... back to what I came here for. My next reward...my 10$ razor so I can enjoy shaving my legs instead of skipping out ...poor hubby he wakes up at night clenching my boobs to make sure he is still sleeping next to a woman....LOL not really :)

And to the title..... me vs half a mile...
And.....
I'm a gonna call it a draw ... today I walked a quarter....jogged/ran slowly HALF A MILE!!!!... and walked a quarter to cool down (keep from looking like a fool crawling on the floor gasping for air) ...the quarter wasn't to bad. I recovered quick from that but the second quarter has me wanting to fall out. I litterally hate it. I can't see my self do more than that. Really .... but.... I want to do it again.  I think what I will do is walk one. Run two. Walk one. Run one. Walk one to cool down. Depending on how long it takes to recover I don't know if I should walk one ...try to run/jog 3 ...walk one to cool down or walk one run two walk one run two walk one.... if this sounds confusing thing about a foot ball field track...and I'm talking laps.

Well...I guess I will figure it out this weekend.

Easy to fall off hard to get back on

Really what can I say? I was doing awesome...then this weekend I made tons of bad choices which has set.me way back. Number 1 my food intake has been embarrassing ... I skipped the track sat and sun. And I'm back over 230. I was so close to being proud of myself now I'm a bit disappointed .... I had been writing blogs on SP but....I hit the.wrong.button on my phone and erase it before saving... aggrivating I tell you.

2 positives for me.... my recovery time.after a quarter mile is so much quicker :) and after walking a lab I'm able to run a quarter mile again .... next time I wanna do both... that is half a mile no walking.

Stay tuned to getting on track.

Epic fail leads to new heights

Breakfast- chocolate slimfast 60 Cal almond milk instead of skim
Lunch- Carb overload pizza buffet like 4 or 5 slices and a nice sized salad.....little bit of pasta
Dinner wasn't hungry.....but 11pm I'm getting there....I must go to bed soon.

There was no skipping the gym today. Had to burn some Cals. Besides weight lifting I only burned 200. 150 burned on the amt trainer 15 min. And I was stoked to do 4 min at 5.1 on the treadmill WITH A SHORTER RECOVERY TIME! I think I may start doing the runs first then do the other machines ...

Is there anyway to tighten skin while losing weight....I hope the weight lifting will do something

A few days late, but.....

I am under 230 yay yay yay yay.....  now I can use my new undies I have had for when I reach my goal. I'm cheap so that's the only way I could justify spending 9 dollars for a pack of underwear.

2.8 more lbs to lose to be able to say I'm down 30lbs. 29.8 lbs to get to where I was 3 years ago but hit a plateau and gave up hope.

I really need to change the way I weigh in. So I joined a sparks team to do Monday weekly weigh ins.  hopefully it would keep me from discouraged since my weight seems to fluctuate throughout the week. Its upsetting to me that I have only lost 5 lbs since last month. But I should be happy.

I do notice a change in my eating. I'm hungry more often. And I eat. But I stop when I'm full even if that means throwing away half my food ...  man.... I can't wait to get into my old pants size 16.  And I really can't wait to for the first time in. 8 years to be bellow that. It seems surreal now though.

Starting to get somewhere

I'm up to 20 minutes on the cardio machines. I still don't like the elliptical ... its kinda easy.... but my husband just expanded from the treadmill to the elliptical which hopefully means he will be my partner instead of us separating since I am not challenged by the treadmill.  I do after 20 min of sweating it on the elliptical arc trainer or my favorite AMT trainer do a 5.1 pace on the treadmill which btw I'm excited to announce I am up to 3 min...which gets me .25miles.
Speaking of. 25 mile since our gym don't offer child care one weekends I am adding the local track as part of me get fit regiment ... we went a few days ago. And I did my first .25ml non stop...probably not at a 5.1 pace like on the treadmill but I did it.what I hope to accomplish is all week at the gym I build up stamina then on the weekend maybe I will see improvement from the week prior.

I never did get under my 230 goal by my bday didn't happen ... but oh well....weight will drop off when its ready to. I just pray that going to the gym and working out I hope to see an improvement my ..
I look in the mirror and my stomach is large like a pregnant woman with out the cute roundness of the baby bump....I'm scared it wont go away.....

Well its time for the gym....

I just dont get it

For the last week I have been trying to walk the 3 miles to work and sure I try to run some too...what I don't get is how former fatties (no offense that is what I plan to be) become runner...as a teen I was in shape and loved doing all sorts of physical activities .... except run I loath. Running.  Put me on an elitical or a an arc trainer which is a running elliptical thing and I push myself faster harder than u would think a fat girl like me should go.... but put me outside and its like gravity has a hold to me. Running is not pleasurable. I am always thinking about my next stopping point and when it comes to starting again its like pulling teeth. 
I don't know...I hope the enjoyment comes with the loss of weight.
Another thing.....I hate counting calories...sure that's why there's the point system....or Atkins.....but I hate not being able to poop. Which I'm sure is why I have been fluctuating instead of having a consecutive loss. I have started watching what I eat I just slip more than I like.

In other news ....tomorrow is my bday..I'm not to happy about it.

Work it!

THAT is what I'm working on. I hope these pix uploaded. Its no where near my start.  I can't find a picture of me anywhere BC I hated me. So even though it was a roller coaster of ups and Downs along the way....I did start in October at 257...and here it is March and just now in almost to my first goal of being in tgw 220s.
We hit a deer ...so we have been missing the gym....but I am excited to say this is day. 2 of walking 3 miles to work and then be on my feet for hours. Which is probably why we are in this was....

Where did yhe week go? Oh yeah....

This week has been something else....I'm disappointed we only made it to the gym once this week...I'm hoping for better next week. I'd write more but I'm exhausted!

9 days 7 lbs....

I know it's a high goal.... but I have been stuck at the same weight for weeks. And after months (3 to be exact) aunt Flo finally came by.... then the fact that the whole diet and exercise is practically starting over I'm hoping for the first week big loss syndrome. 

I love this pure motivation I go to the gym...do some cardio...lift some weights and when I don't think I can Oliver push further.  I increased the length of time I stay on cardio equipment 5 min this week some 15 min it is.  One day a week I do the tread mill....I'm trying to build MT endurance....3min at 5.1 pace ...
Not good yet....bur I am working on it. Still no pics...but soon

A horrid weekend

My gym buddy dear hubby is away for a few days.... and I really need him things are unspeakabley terrible.
Something around here has to change.

4 out of 5 aint bad

So far we have been to the gym 4 out of 5 days our first week. The first thing is cardio.....10 min is about 100cal burn....the elliptical'
The running elliptical thing or the arc stride thing...next week going to try to add 5 min. Only once this week ran 5.0 on treadmill for 2 min....sucky right! I might add 30 sec a day or 1 min a week.  Did arm and stomach work out ...I'm alternating between arm and leg daily.

Haven't done pics or measurements but will do them for sure when I get the wraps......I will give more details when I get them...